Dear God,
First I would like to say...how do you do it? Like how do you manage to be GOD!!!? I'm only a human and so many things just overwhelm me! I couldn't fathom the pressure you must go through every second of every day. I know you are GOD and you are the only God. I bet it's just human nature to be like HOW my lord ! You are everywhere at the same time ! Listening and healing and transforming people's lives every second, probably even
millisecond ! Being your child makes me ask, with all the respect and the concern. Just like a child with their human father. At times with eyes of concern, wondering how do you do it? In the human fathers answer would simply be " I do it because I love you, I could be tired but the love i have for you fuels me!" I could only imagine your answer would be the same and so much more!
Today, was an emotionally draining day. Honestly between cleaning the house and watching the girls + doggos, it was rough. Yet to add fuel to the fire. The feeling of unappreciated and the feeling of always being the last person others think of hurt, and deeply at that. Then I try to stray away from my emotions because I don't want to be led or react from my negative emotions, yet the thoughts are replaying and keep adding and getting on top of eachother. I feel like I could explode. On top of that, the girls are crying or fighting. I'm not at all complaining. Merely painting the picture of how my day went (emotionally and scenario wise).
I'm asking so badly to be to be more like you. More like Jesus. I couldn't imagine how it must be for you. I pray for guidance and wisdom to be better and do better and get better every day.
Matthew 7: 7 " Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you."
This is the verse I needed to read and hear, the more I learn and read your word Lord is you speaking to me ! Everything I need to hear and know ! Thank you for allowing me this space to release and come to you with everything Oh Lord! Obviously I can pray and I do, this just lets me get everything out and talk to you in a different way.
Of course you knew that, though!
Luke 6: 35 "But love your enemies, and do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return, and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, for he is kind to the ungrateful and the evil."
I think of this every time I feel so type of way. Thank you for being MY GOD, MY SAVIOR AND MY DELIVERER !!
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