Dear God,
I thank you with my entire heart. My entire being. I thank you because you have always, always shown your favor in my life. Thank you for always having my back, my family's back and our best interest. Which, of course you would!! YOUR GOD!! Our Heavenly Father!!
Before I go further into this letter. I want to talk to you, my fellow reader. I just want to say I will be so honest and raw. I felt called to say this because in this letter i will be getting raw and not in the way that will disturb you, as a reader. I say it because this is uncomfortable for me. Really uncomfortable. These are intimate moments, when I write. Also I know in my vulnerability I am not alone. I have a huge feeling in my heart that many of us are in the same boat. Just because I decided to do this blog and my podcast doesn't mean, I have everything all figured out, because I really really don't. I wake up everyday to do better and be better. It's not always from one day to the next that many situations are different, but I believe that with God and having faith it will get better soon! I'm still doing my part though.
Last week was a whirlwind of ups and downs and some really lows were also, unfortunately met. My husband and I are doing what we can to make our financial situation better for our family. Well needless to say, we were stressing out because our bills were due and we didn't have enough money to pay them all. We just needed fifty more dollars to be good to pay the last bill. With stress over financial problems come other emotions. It gets overwhelming.
I was trying to take control over everything, find a solution.
When having faith is needed the most, it's almost as it's the very last thing you could have because you NEED to have the assurance of "I have the money in my hand it will get paid" but it really is not like that very often. When you seek God though in the good moments and the bad. You will find peace.
2 Thessalonians 3:16
16 Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times in every way. The Lord be with you all.
This week I anchored down in God and continue to have faith. Yet from time to time, weariness would try to creep in. There came a moment when my husband had to remind me, God is with us. It brought me back to my faith that everything would be okay.
Fast forward to Friday, the due date. Our roommate as able to give her part of the bill. Which thank God she had it because normally we get her part until after the bills are due.
The bills were paid. Relief and gratitude filled my body.
Around nine in the evening my husband called me, as he was still at work. He was in awe and disbelief. He shared we were RANDOMLY gifted money. We didn't ask for it or anything.
Here I was on Monday worried about x,y,z and here is God telling me the WHOLE week. BE STILL AND KNOW I AM GOD. (Psalm 46:10)
Everyday I wake up knowing, God is Good All The Time. God is not only Good but he's generous and what seems impossible to us is beyond possible for Him! God is supernatural!!
I have to remember this especially when I'm freaking out, because a good outcome seems impossible...
Not for you my Lord.
THANK YOU FOR THIS REVELATION!!!
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