Dear God,
It's me again!
As I was thinking what today's letter could be about, I remembered a sentence I heard from a sermon I heard not too long ago. " Faith starts when you don't and can't control something" ... or something along those lines. Well today and just lately my faith has truly been at work and tested. Not by temptation...well actually I take that back. This past weekend I did experience temptation to break my sobriety, I'm very proud to report. I didn't fall into temptation!!
The testing of my faith I was referring to is, I have no idea how this certain situation will come to be. I am trying to think of every solution possible and the only solution at the end of the day is Give it to God. Let it go, and stop trying SO hard to make it work. Not having control of my day to day situations is something I've always struggled with. Being the type of person who need reassurance, needs certainty isn't easy or relaxing- in anyway shape or form!
Letting God handle his end while doing everything in our power is where we, my husband and I are currently at. The unknown has always been a thing I've been afraid of, legitimately. I Know and recognize God has always had favor on my life. Even knowing that, I still need to have "control". Even though I know, I literally have control over NOTHING! So it's pretty ironic. Being a control freak and having kids and also having faith. Because everyday, every minute, every second isn't promised. Having faith that "tomorrow will be a better day" or even that tomorrow will come.
I have so much faith in You Lord that You WILL Be Done! I pray you help me release the need to have control over everything. I give everything to you my Lord. My Worries, anxieties and my struggles. I believe you have the best plan in mind for my life. THANK YOU !
In Jesus name I Pray Amen !
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