Dear God,
I've been so caught up in life. Getting ready for the move, the packing cleaning and of course procrastinating! Been caught up in the putting things off. I don't know if there is anything that's making me feel this way? Possibly, the move is intimidating me. I have been having a really hard time getting back into the groove of my writings and podcasting. The big circle... I've been feeling like i can't get things done here at home and i feel worse because i haven't done the things my hearts screaming at me to do.
Today, You called and i answered My Lord. You told me to pray with and for two of my family members. I honestly hesitated a bit and ALMOST didn't just because i wasn't sure if they would want for me to pray for them. They did of course. But how dare i not want to listen? I'm so thankful i got to pray with them and for them My Lord. It has been a while since i've done that. My heart is both whole and hurts. It hurts for this situation our family is in. I truly believe you don't give your soldiers battles they cannot handle. Lord fill our home fill our family with your presence, with your love.
May we have the wisdom we need as a unit to give a wonderful life to those whose we are in charge of. Please help us get through to them with your words Lord!!
As we are in this situation, I can't help but wonder how you feel, when you have this path for our lives, when you have an eternity of paradise for us. All we have to do is believe in My Lord Jesus and obey You Lord!! I could only imagine your frustration, because you only want a good life for us !! Yet we still disobey. We disobey and realize that what we wanted wasn't the correct thing for our lives. Now we live with regrets of what could have been. While I understand that we need to learn lessons to understand why we should obey you. We could just save ourselves the trouble and obey You Lord from the get go. It's such a complex play of actions and decisions. Had we not done said action we would be an entirely different person. While I believe everything has to happen for a reason, whether it's a lesson or something greater. I just think we could save the time and trouble; all while still being thankful for my mistakes, simply because I wouldn't understand things that I do now... I wish we humans weren't hands on learners hahah!!!
It wouldn't be the same though if a person could just make a better decision for us. The lessons and thing we could have gained . As You can tell im just scrabbled in my brain!
All i know Lord is YOU have the answer! The solution.
Jeremiah 29:11-12
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
Lord I love you and i thank you for being you! I pray we receive your guidance and your wisdom Lord, may You send You Angels to Protect our minds, hearts and Soul Lord!
In Jesus name,
Amen!!
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